We are the midst of a major overhaul of our home. Rooms are shifting around, clothes are being given away if too small, and we have generously received some wonderful new clothes to replace the old. There is nothing that feels normal about our current state of life--but it is a wonderful chaos.
In the midst of unloading I went through Kylee's room. Hers is the most "hoarded" room of the house. With more things pink, frilly, and impossibly difficult to throw away; because they are either beautiful--she is the keeper of beauty in our home--or lovely hand-made creations. So I HATE helping her purge because it is painful for us both. I decided to go through a few things the other day while Kylee was gone and stumbled on a journal that she had written in Kindergarten. This was what the entry said...
It struck me. Almost knocked me over. This 6 year old child who wrote very little throughout the entire book had such a clear clear understanding of who loved her. Embracing that truth gave her permission to believe that she was lovable. She loved herself! And I will go as far as to say that I believe this also will translate, (if it hasn't already) to a better understanding of the love of a Heavenly Father. Wow. Amazing.
Now journey with me 7,368.3(ish) miles to Uganda. Here there are two children that we don't know but already love, they are waiting for a forever home. Adoption is one answer to a tragically difficult question. Right now it is controversial, it can be unethical, and we kept getting tangled in the logistics of the process--wanting not to do more harm than good. We silenced our internal "nudges" and kept living life. 3 months, 6 months, and 1 year went by. The nudges became more and more undeniable. Then we took the very big step of proceeding...with caution...but in faith. Trusting that what He had begun would be done as prayerfully and ethically as we could possibly navigate.
We quietly, confidentially started the process...knowing it would likely be a lengthy one...only to be expedited by a Power much greater than our own. With wonderful fall plans of weddings and anniversary trips on the books...we instead will be headed to Uganda.
We are incredibly excited and overwhelmed by what all of this means...but most of all we are thrilled to know that two little ones might learn what Kylee already has--that they are deeply loved.
I hope you will grab a cup of coffee with me as we walk through this next chapter of life together!
May You Be a Blessing and May You Be Blessed!
Jenni
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